From the ages of 12-17 I dealt with pornography addiction.
I’ve never talked about this publicly — but in the hopes of lighting the path a little brighter for those who need it, I feel compelled to be vulnerable.
I got involved in it because I was severely bullied. Day in and day out I experienced emotional pain, soul-crushing loneliness, and a feeling that I’d never be good enough in life.
I turned to pornography because I thought it would fill the emotional space that was empty within me.
I turned to pornograpy because I thought it would help me learn what love was, because I didn’t feel any.
Pornography did the exact opposite of what I thought it would do.
It taught me what true love WASN’T.
It left me feeling MORE lonely and forgotten.
It made me feel shame, remorse, and guilt.
It wasn’t until I started building my personal relationship with Jesus Christ that my eyes were opened and I learned who I was and what my future could look like.
Christ taught me what TRUE love is.
Christ helped me OVERCOME my addiction.
Christ loved me THROUGH my pain.
Christ SAVED and REDEEMED me.
To anyone out there who is bound by the chains of addiction, sin, or negative habits — reach up and reach out. Jesus Christ died for you. If you were the only person on earth, He would’ve still gone to Gethsamane and Calvary for YOU.
Your Heavenly Parents love you and want you to come back to Them.
Repentance isn’t an event, it’s a process — but it’s the most beautiful and merciful process we could ever need in this world.
In addition, there are amazing professional resources as well you can access to help you.
I’m your friend. Jesus is your friend. We believe in you. Keep going. Don’t give up.